Telling time

When the news is good, they call around 3:00. When the news is bad, the nurse doesn't call until after 4.

At 4:30, the phone rang.

The test was negative. Bleeding for one day last week doesn't count as a period. It's unusual not to have a period after an hcg shot. If nothing happens by Friday, I should repeat the test "in case something weird is going on."

Even though we were expecting it after this morning, the news has still knocked both SF and me for a loop. I prepared myself mentally -- as much as possible -- for another miscarriage, but not for just an outright garden-variety failure to launch. And though this may technically be better news (in that it doesn't add to the disparity between pregnancies and live births), it doesn't feel that way just now.